a birthday revelation

so here is that birthday apifiny I am oh so late on posting....

ok so my birthday was last week on wednesday and I didn't expect or
actually want anything, but it ended up turning out wayy different.

here is what I thought before- maybe like 2 or 3 weeks before, I decided
to not tell anyone about my birthday because personally I don't think
its a big deal. really, when you think about it, its just another day
out of the year, just another day no one will think of a week later. I
would rather have someone spend their money and time on something far
more important to them and not on me. just having good, trusting friends
by my side is probably the best birthday present I could get. I didn't
want a party, and no gifts. the real reason a birthdays insignificance
hit me so hard this year probably came from all the spoiled rotton kids
at school. whenever I hear kids talking about their bmw or all the crazy
expensive things they get, I always think "that money could be used for
something way more important" or "you could spend your time caring about
something way more important." maybe its just a defense to not be THAT
kind of girl, but I didn't want things to be focused on me. personlly,
I'm not that important, I'm not an interesting person when you really
think about it, I'm not worth your time.

but the day of my birthday, my perspective kinda got altered.

what I thought after- I still don't think that birthdays are as
important as some people make them, but they definatly hold a
significance, my amazing friends helped me see that. I still don't think
huge extravigant presents are necessary, but the little ones are. the
little presents and just thinking that someone actually took time out of
their life to think of you and do something a little special for you.
having people that you barely know, know its your birthday is a crazy
feeling I can't explain. I'm not gonna lie, it definatly made me feel
good. its also kind of cool to think that there is one day out of the
year that is kinda yours, that is special to you in one way or another.

so to wrap this rant up, I do still think there are wayy better things
to worry about in this world then to throw a huge birthday party, unless
its an impotant age. but now I've realized that its just the little
things that matter. the little gifts that someone suprises you with, or
the random "happy birthday"'s you get throughout the day, the
unexpected. those things are the best. I'm happy that it turned out how
it did. possibly one of the best birthdays I've ever had, all thanks to
you :]
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